Sooner or later it all gets real

Last two weeks as a first-year collegian!  It’s so strange to be let out for summer in the middle of May, but I’ll definitely take it.  It’s also so strange to be done with freshman year already.  I’m at such a different place in life than I was just nine months ago, which is a grand proclamation to make– but definitely true.  When I first stepped onto the Tufts campus in August, I don’t think I had a definite or clear idea of what to expect from my first year in college.  Even so, I can tell you now that freshman year panned out completely differently than I expected.  There was bad, there was good.  But not exactly the kinds of bad and good that I had anticipated before arriving. (I hope I’m being vague enough for you right now!)

Just today I was thinking about a phrase I constantly heard when I was a pre-frosh: that college “changes you.”  I agree with this in some respects, but at the same time I don’t believe that I’ve transformed into some entirely new version of myself.  No matter how much I may have hoped that I would become more extroverted, less awkward, etc etc, in college, I always thought it implausible that my personality would dramatically change.  Anyone who’s known me for a long time would attest to the fact that I’m still the same old Jenna.

Rather, I would argue that college facilitates self-discovery.  Everything that has happened to me this year, even the not-so-good, is helping me find myself in ways that high school very much didn’t.  That’s really all there is to it.  I really, really believe in college’s latent functions and have been turning them over in my head a lot lately.  Indeed, it’s “all getting real” that I’ll be home again in two weeks time.

So, like, there’s my end-of-freshman-year reflection.  I’m going to leave you with the album cover of On The Beach by Neil Young just because it’s peaceful and I like it.  (Also, post title is from the album’s first track,”Walk On”)

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